Say it

I say lots of things I shouldn't. 

There are so many times when, after saying every little thought that was running through my mind, I've thought: "well, that's going to come back to haunt you".  And it does, usually.

I tell people how I feel.  About them.  About what they're doing.  About how they're changing my world.  I tell people they're important.  Or beautiful.  Or mean.  Or selfish.  I tell people how they make me smile inside.  Or they make me cry when I'm alone.  I tell people the truth. 

And, I don't mind when they do the same to me.  If I make you feel something, good or bad, say it.  I can take honesty.  Truly.  If I'm being a bitch, say it.  If I make you smile at the thought of me, say it.  If you can't wait to watch me leave, say it.

But don't sugarcoat anything.  Sugarcoating is like trying to lie with a clear conscience.  It's a waste of perfectly good frosting because, in the end, it's still a lie.  You still weren't strong enough to tell the truth.  Be strong enough because I promise I'm strong enough to take it.  I don't have to like every word in order to want to hear all of them.

You're not going to like everything I say, but that won't stop me.  So, don't let it stop you.

Yes, a lot of words have crossed these lips.  And, not all of them were thought through first.  Some came tumbling out before I could find my filter.  But I have never regretted the truth, given or received.  Honesty should really be the only determining factor whenever you ask yourself "How do I say this?"

Just say it because, whether it be the beginning or the end, one of us has to.