Ponytails and pancakes

Ponytails and pancakes

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Don't ask if you don't want to know

In my younger days, I was a less-than-stellar truth teller.  I was so desperate to have people like me that I'd tell them anything I thought they wanted to hear.  I am completely over that now. 

As soon as Sofia was born, I knew that I wanted her to trust me more than anything else.  I can't trust my own mother on any level, and I hated growing up with that feeling.  So, my #1 parenting goal was to be the person she could rely on the most.  And, I also knew that she had to see that I never lied to anyone in order to believe that I wouldn't lie to her. 

So, I don't lie to anyone about anything anymore.  In order to accomplish this, I had to let go of the desire to be liked.  done
I had to learn to let go of the people who didn't like hearing the truth.  done
I had to try to be tactful when answering some of the things where the truth is best heard with the volume turned down a little.  done - ish.

Now, if you ask me a question, I will answer it.  It's a very freeing feeling.  I've had several people say "I can't believe you said that!"  But, my policy is:  if it won't hurt my children, I'll tell you everything.  Maybe more than I should, but I'll learn to balance it eventually. 

Through my journey into the complete truth, I've learned that people really would rather be lied to sometimes.  I don't do that anymore, though.  So, if you want to hear what a great person you are - be sure of who you are before you ask me.  If you want someone to tell you what amazing children you have - take a long look at them before you ask me.  However, if you want to give an opinion to me, wait until I ask. 

Unsolicited truths are not in my repertoire.  If you don't ask, I won't offer.  You're welcome.

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